Stepping into the role of the Fiddler in Fiddler on the Roof with the James Island Players felt like stepping into the heart of a story that mirrors the challenges of Jewish identity in a changing world. The Fiddler’s role represents the delicate balance between tradition and an ever-evolving world that often doesn’t wait for us to adapt. This tension between holding onto cultural roots and facing the pressures of an outside world is something that has greatly affected me as a Jewish teen. Playing this role allowed me to confront those questions head-on, celebrating the strength of my Jewish identity even as I navigated the complexities of being openly Jewish in a setting where that identity wasn’t always fully understood or accepted.

From the beginning, being part of this production was more than just rehearsing lines or learning choreography. Fiddler on the Roof is more than a story of one man and his family; it’s the tale of a community bound by shared beliefs, facing universal trials and deeply specific to the Jewish experience. In embodying the Fiddler, I found a connection to my Jewish identity that felt deeply personal and genuine. The role of the Fiddler allowed me to express my identity openly in ways I hadn’t always felt confident to do, embracing the rich themes of the story while sharing my journey of pride and resilience on stage.

Throughout this production, I encountered varying degrees of antisemitism before, during, and after the show. Comments on my hair being curly, intended as a positive remark on how I “suited the ethnic Jewish look this musical needed,” were everyday ordeals. One day, I walked on set and was immediately bombarded with remarks like, "You look extra Hasidic today!” This was meant as a compliment coming from my director. When, on occasion, things escalated beyond that point, I found myself a community I could fall back within my friends and cast mates. The experience wasn’t without its difficulties, and at times, the reactions from others reminded me of how different my identity could make me feel. Yet, these challenges strengthened my determination to share my culture, religion, and perspective proudly. Portraying the Fiddler gave me a newfound confidence in being visibly Jewish, allowing me to create my own story even in moments of discomfort. For many in the audience, this production might have been their first encounter with Jewish culture, and I felt privileged to represent it.

Adding to the authenticity of my representation as the Fiddler, I played the violin onstage, an instrument I’ve practiced for over eight years. This choice not only grounded me in the role but allowed me to express myself in a language I’ve come to love over years of playing. My violin became a bridge between the character and me, helping me feel even closer to the spirit of the story. Each note was a reminder of my dedication to my identity, bringing the music of Jewish life to audiences who might not normally experience it.

Being part of the James Island Players production also reconnected me to a local community I had stepped away from since the pandemic. I was surrounded by cast members who once again became friends, many of whom supported me through moments when I felt most vulnerable about my identity. Those friendships were invaluable in helping me feel accepted and understood, even as I faced occasional moments of antisemitism outside the group. Sharing this experience with them helped me rebuild a sense of community, reinforcing that my Jewish identity could bring people together through understanding and empathy.

Ultimately, playing the fiddler allowed me to rediscover pride in my Jewish identity and to share it openly, even when being part of a minority felt isolating. This role not only reminded me that embracing who I am—especially the parts that make me unique—is worth any challenge, but it also contributed to the ongoing dialogue about Jewish identity in our ever-changing world. As I navigated the delicate balance between tradition and modernity on stage, I realized that my performance could serve as a bridge for others, fostering understanding and connection. I’ve learned that, despite occasional adversity, expressing my identity is a source of strength that can create connection and understanding in ways I hadn’t expected. Staying true to myself, regardless of others’ opinions, is perhaps the most rewarding role I could ever play, both on stage and in life.